Driving
kids to
suicide?
a boy
named
Donald Donald
(not his
real
name)
was 15
years
old in
1985 when
he was
admitted
to
Father
Newton’s
KIDS of
Bergen
County
(a
Straight
spin-off).
He says
that at
that
time he
had used
alcohol
and
smoked marijuana
five
times but if
you were
to read
his
admission
report
he
admitted
to using
much
more
than
that.
Why?
He says
in his
December
16, 1999
deposition
for the
Rebecca
Erlich
case
that he
gave in
out of "sheer
terror"
from
having
his two
intake
counselors
(two
kids
further
along
in their
own
treatment)
scream
at him
and spit
on
him.
".
. .by the
time my
intake
was
done,"
he
stated
in
deposition,
"I
came up
with a
list of
drugs by
most of
which I
never
seen or
couldn’t
describe
to you
what
they
looked
like or
what
they
tasted
like or
anything
else. I
didn’t
even
know
what
they
were . .
."
KIDS' attorneys
must
have
been
impressed
with
stories
like
Donald's
which
I'm
about to
tell.
They
must
have
been
because
in April
2000
they
just
gave
up.
They
settled
out of
court
with Ms.
Erlich
for $4.5
million. |
Donald
says
that he
refused
to write
a daily
confessional
called a
MI
because
he felt
he didn’t
have a
real
drug
problem.
To get
him to
comply
he says
they
stood
him in a
corner
all
night
and
denied
him food
until,
after
about
two days
of
this,
he
decided
to
comply.
One day
as he
sat in
his
chair,
he
states
in sworn
deposition,
he
didn't
have his
hands in
his
knees
and KIDS’
officials
felt
they
should
be on
his
knees so
he was
restrained
by five
people.
The back
of his
head was
cracked
open
when
they got
him to
the
floor
and he
was sent
to Holy
Name
Hospital.
He
estimates
that he
was
restrained
300 -
400
times at
KIDS but
has
trouble
placing
dates
because
he was
not
allowed
to look
at a
watch or
a
calendar
during
most of
this
period.
Donald
states,
"There
were an
immense
number
of times
where I
was
forced
to
urinate
and
defecate
on
myself
because
they
basically
took my
bathroom
privilege
away. I
wasn’t
allowed
to go to
the
bathroom.
And I
witnessed
a lot of
other
people
in there
ending
up
urinating
and
defecating
on
themselves
because
being in
a
restraint.
They
told you
were too
dangerous
to get
up and
go to
the
bathroom,
those
who
asked.
If you
asked to
go to
the
bathroom,
you were
afraid
because
if you
did ask,
then you’d
be
afraid
to end
up
getting
your
tooth
through
your lip
and I
had it
done
many
times."
When
Donald
made
second
phase he
was
allowed
to see
his
childhood
pediatrician.
Donald
testified
that
this
doctor
prescribed
Inderal
to treat
an
irregular
heartbeat
but,
according
to
Donald,
Dr.
Newton
blasted
him for "using
drugs to
deal
with my
feelings
and I
had to
use the
program
to deal
with my
feelings
. .
." He
was not
allowed
to take
the
medication.
Dr.
Panjwani,
a KIDS
affiliated
psychiatrist,
at one
point
put
Donald
on
Ritalin,
but
after
about 3
- 4
weeks
Donald
states
that
Mrs.
Newton
(Ruth
Ann
Newton,
the
founder's
wife)
decided
to take
him off
it.
According
to
Donald’s
deposition,
one day
Bergen
County
prosecutors
came in
and told
him that
he was a
legal
adult
and did
not have
to stay
in
treatment.
Donald
left
along
with a
group of
other
adult
students
but
after a
few
hours
of
freedom
he says
he began
to feel
he could
not make
it on
the
outside
world so
he
called
Mrs. Newton
asking
to come
back. A
few
weeks
later
Donald
left for
good.
After 4
and a
half
years of
"treatment"
he had
attended
2 weeks
of high
school!
He was
not
allowed
to
associate
with the
only
kids he
had
known
for the
last
five
years of
his life
because
he left
in
"bad
standing"
and
could
have no
contact
with
anyone
from
KIDS. He
declared
that,
"Mrs.
Newton
said I
had 30
days to
live
and, you
know, in
her
professional
opinion,
I had to
go to
Bergen
Pines
after I
left the
program
because
she
thought
I couldn’t
make it
in the
real
world."
When
Donald
finally
left
KIDS at
age 19
he says
he used
no drugs
but he
did
drink
alcohol.
Was it a
self-full-filling
prophecy?
Here he
describes
his
first
alcoholic
drink in
4 and a
half
years.
(His
story
about
how he
almost
tasted
Kellog’s
Frosted
Flakes
once
after
fleeing
the cult
is more
amusing.
KIDS
students
are not
allowed
to eat
sugar): |
|
Q.
Why did
you go
off the
wagon?
A.
Good
question.
I was
still
under
the
impression
that a
lot of
the
things
that I
had been
told in
Kids
were
true and
one of
the
classic
and most
disturbing
things,
I think,
about my
involvement
with
Kids was
the fact
that
they
kept
stressing
to me
during
those
four and
a half
years
that if
I ever
left
Kids, no
matter
what,
black
and
white, I
would
drink
again.
It would
not
work. It
would
not work
for me
or
anybody
else in
the Kids
program
and we
were
doomed
for
failure.
So I
went to
prove
them
wrong,
but I
always
had it
in the
back of
my mind
that it
wouldn’t
work.
When I
picked
up a
drink
again
and I
relapsed,
I can’t
even say
that I
did it
because
I was
feeling
some
kind of
urge to
drink. I
just
kind of
got
tired of
fighting
that
constant
thinking
of, you
know, it’s
bound to
happen.
It’s
just
going to
happen.
It’s
going to
happen.
I had no
urge to
drink at
the
time,
none.
Q. In
a sense,
what
they
said
came
true?
A. It
was a
self
full[-fill]ing
prophecy,
yes. |
Donald
describes
resorting
to body
carvings
at KIDS. |
|
A.
Right.
There
were
other
times in
Kids
when I
felt
extremely
discouraged.
I felt
extremely
trapped.
I was
convinced
that I
would
never
get out
because
that was
the
message,
if you
ever
leave,
you’re
going to
die. So
if you’re
going to
die
anyway
and I’m
never
getting
out of
here
unless I
live
with
their
system,
which I
couldn’t
give
myself
into, I
couldn’t
totally
push
down my
sense of
self to
comply
with
their
group, I
felt
discouraged
and in
conflict.
In that
conflict,
I began
to --
and
maybe I’m
going to
reword
what I
said. I’m
not
saying
the
other
three
attempts
were not
serious,
which
they
weren’t
suicide
attempts.
What
they
were,
they
were
self-destructive
actions.
Q.
What
were
they?
A. I
would
take
plastic
forks
and cut
my body
just out
of pure
rage,
pure
despair,
discouragement.
Something
to kind
of deal
with
that
pain
because
I really
didn’t
have any
kind
of-- any
other
kind of
other
devices
that
would
have
been
unhealthy
is
totally
taken
away and
stripped
from me.
A. It
wasn’t
three. I
could
probably
say it
was
closer
to
fifteen.
There
were
very
minor
incidents
with
moderately
sharp to
dull
objects
that I
would
cut my
body
with.
Q. So
that was
your
modus
operandi
on this
type of
thing,
you cut
your
body
with a
sharp
object?
A.
Yeah. I
got to a
point
where I
kind of
lost
hope. I
was
filled
with
despair
and it
was my
only
vice. |
Donald
had
drunk
alcohol
and
smoked
five
marijuana
cigarettes
and now
found
himself
in a
very
abusive
destructive-mind
cult.
He felt
so
overwhelmed
and
utterly
hopeless
that he
had
resorted
to
carving
on his
body.
Was Dr.
Newton
concerned
that
Donald
might
escape
in this
KIDS-induced
demoralized
state?
Donald
describes
his
first
serious
attempt
to kill
himself
which
occurred
within
two
hours of
his
escape
from
KIDS.
Like
drinking
alcohol
was this
another
self
full-filling
prophecy? |
|
A.
No. I
ran
away. I
was gone
for
about
two
hours
and I
thought
everything
that
they had
told me,
that I’m
going to
die if I
leave, I
can’t
make it
in the
world
because
I lack
the
skills
everyone
else
has, so
I
decided
if that’s
the
case, I
don’t
want to
go back.
I might
as well
die and
I cut my
arm
then.
Q.
Where
did you
cut your
arm?
I don’t
mean on
your arm
physically.
Where
were
you?
A. I
was in
the
parking
lot at
Riverside
Square
Mall.
Kind of
hiding
out.
.
.
Q.
What did
you do
in an
attempt
to
commit
suicide?
A.
I
broke a
bottle
and took
the
center
piece
out of
the
bottom
of the
bottle
and I
gashed
my
wrists
very
deeply
to the
point
where
the vein
was very
obvious. |
Donald
says he
was
found
and
forcefully
taken
back to
KIDS.
That
they
refused
to take
him to
the
hospital
and
that, "when
I had
asked
Tony
K.
and Mrs.
Newton
if I
could go
to the
hospital
that
first
time and
they
said no.
They
told me
to build
my ego
off the
scar and
at that
point
was when
one of
the
veins in
my arm
was
showing
pretty
clearly."
Donald
describes
his
second
serious
attempt
at
suicide.
This
time he
was at
the KIDS
treatment
camp but
wearing
a
sweater
so as to
conceal
his
deadly
attempt
to
escape
from
KIDS. |
|
Q.
What was
your
second?
A. I
snuck a
double-edge
razor
blade
into
group
and bit
the
plastic
piece
off and
gashed
my wrist
open and
shot
blood
all over
the
floor.
Q.
Same
wrist?
A.
Yes.
Q.
When you
did that
in the
middle
of group
at the
time,
what
happened?
A. I
was
doing it
under a
sweater.
I had a
long
sweater
on and
nobody
could
really
see what
I was
doing.
Q.
When you
began to
bleed, I
assume
somebody
noticed?
A.
That’s
how they
noticed
when
they saw
blood
spilling
out of
the
sweater.
Q.
What
happened
then?
A.
They
took me
out of
group
and ran
me to
the
bathroom.
Q.
What did
they do
in the
bathroom?
A.
Washed
my arm
out.
.
.
Q.
Take you
for
medical
attention?
A.
No. In
fact,
they
refused
medical
attention
when I
asked.
Q.
Did they
put on
any kind
of a
bandage?
A.
They put
gauze
and they
put on
some
bacitracin
or
something.
Q.
Nobody
called
the
doctor?
A. I
asked
staff to
go to
the
hospital.
I asked
them to
see a
doctor
and they
said no.
|
Donald
says he
was
allowed
to see
program-affiliated
psychiatrists
to
discuss
his
anxiety
and his
suicidal
ideations,
but
always
in the
presence
of Mrs.
Newton
and/or
other
program
counselors.
Donald
says
that one
psychiatrist,
Dr.
Galitizin,
suggested
to him
that he
read
books
and
self-help
material,
but
Donald
states
that
Mrs.
Newton
told the
psychiatrist
that he
was not
allowed
to read
and that
"that
wouldn't
be a
good
idea."
Donald
testified
that he
had
never
been
suicidal
before
KIDS.
|
|
Q.
Prior to
your
admission
to KIDS,
had you
felt
suicidal?
A.
Not
seriously.
Q.
Had you
un-seriously
tried it
or
attempted
it?
A.
No. I
cut my
arm on
the top
of my
arm to
impress
my
friends,
but no,
I had
not
actually,
with
full
intentions,
planned
or tried
to kill
myself.
.
.
Q.
When you
cut the
top of
your arm
to
impress
your
friends,
you were
trying
to
impress
them
that you
were
thinking
about
suicide?
A.
No. I
was
trying
to
impress
them by
showing
them I
can
handle a
lot of
pain.
|
When
asked
whether
he had
engaged
in any
"suicidal
gestures
or
attempts"
since
leaving
KIDS
Donald
responded
"no"
but he
did
offer
that in
1990,
after
leaving
the
program
for
good, he
went to
Valley
Hospital
for
emergency
treatment.
He says
he was
having "suicidal
thoughts
from
leaving
the
program."
One
therapist
Donald
has met
with
since
leaving
KIDS is
Sharon
Everett
who,
according
to
Donald,
says he
was
suffering
from
posttraumatic
stress
disorder
and that
it could
be as a
result
of some
of the
incidents
and his
involvement
in the
KIDS
program."
Donald
is alive
and well
today,
but he
came
close to
ending
it all
from
being in
one of
the most
abusive
drug
rehabs
in the
world.
Donald’s
story is
important
to us
because
it shows
that
abusive
Straight-like
programs
can
drive a
kid to
such
preoccupations
with
suicide
that
they
have to
be
watched
around
the
clock,
and even
then
inventive
kids
might
find a
way. And
furthermore
his
story
underscores
the
point
that
Straight
has a
real
problem
of what
to do
with
children
it has
made
suicidal
when the
child
finally
leaves
the
program
either
through
escape,
graduation
or
withdrawal. |
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